#the irl has been killing me

[intotheelliwoods]

Today I remembered shells exist

[peachyutdr]

i finished it, was kicked out of the game, and then spent the next 10 minutes drawing this. i will now go take a shower, most likely cry, and then go through the emotional turmoil of convincing myself to reset so i can do a geno run. i hate it here :D

[arttsuka]

Sorry for this super depressing poll but

[ninjagirlstar5]

i think you forgot the tech wizard's birthday (mikado)

TO BE HONEST WITH YOU, ANON, THIS IS LESS, "Oh shit, I forgot one of my favorite character's birthday-!" AND MORE, "I've been swamped with work, school, and been more focus on a silly little stick figure show over SDRA2 and now I'm pass the deadline welp-"

Anyways, here's his birthday art that I tried to plan in advance but never finished it in time until today cause I didn't spend my time wisely.

Happy birthday to my worst boy(s)! I totally wasn't, like, four weeks late for this, hahaha!!;;;

(Featuring me still figuring out my IRLkado Lives AU coat design for him. Still not sure if I like it or not-)

[ganondoodle]

so with echoes of wisdom .. i havent watched any of the trailers beyond the very first one and the thumbnails/screenshots and what others have said about it-

but with the world inside the rift being called "Welt des Nichts" aka "world of nothing/void" in german ('still' in english, for some reason) and demises title in french being "avatar of nothing" ... yeah my anxiety is shooting through the roof again

(hopefully you can be a little more forgiving for me being anxious/weird about it bc demise is my blorbo)

i had similar worries with totk, that werent proven true thankfully, but the darn book is making it all worse again with all those weird lore things the game doesnt even so much as hint at AND potential retcons- im in for a really rough time huh, not just stress in real life (more in tags.. its alot) but now about my specific hyperfixation from two things even (AND artblock still..)

weird as it may sound, i dont want demise to get more lore, partly bc i dont believe theyd do anything with him that i would like (given their track record) but much more importantly- the fact that he has this little lore about him is precisely one of the reasons why i fell in love with him, i tend to like characters that are neglected by the narrative, and his story being both so flat and already done meant i can be very creative with what i come up with for him without necessarily contradicting anything in canon (which is ... or was a big point of how i wrote destiny's story and lore, working with canon in a way that reframes it all without straight up ignoring it ... but i suppose i urgently need to let go of that and accept i spend alot of time working things that will go to waste :( ) AND not having to worry that there will be more stuff with him that would massively change not only what im writing but also potentially how i feel about him since the game he was briefly in was the oldest chronologically and ended with his death- i didnt expect them to mess with anything that far back and thought theyd just go forward and leave the timeline behind and wouldnt mess with it again, given how botw seemed to be a sort of 'fresh start' that seemingly regarded the past as the past that needs to rest and that the timeline was finally no longer a discussion if everythings unified through botw and one thing going forward

but i suppose i was very wrong with that .__.

right now the only thing that motivates me still is the left over determination and spite to work on my zelda comic, since i have never gotten this far and really want to get something done for once, but i cant lie that im feeling like i should pause all work on it too to wait and see waht the book and the new game will do .. either to determine if i still have the will to keep working on it after those things are out (my love for tloz has been taking alot of hits lately ..) or if i have to change stuff (mostly bc of my lore problem trying to not ignore it ..)

[poems-of-the-anentomologist]

suffocating 

I’m doing the dishes again

Staring into the water

At that boy

How can I call myself a girl when the face that stares back

Is just another random boy

You’d see playing on a subrban corner

My name isn’t my name

People don’t call me by my name

I’ve been cut off

From everyone

If I died tonight

Nobody would notice

Just another kid

Just another teen suicide

It’s better than the alternative

To suffocate in this form

Would be preferable

To living in a world where nobody sees me

It’s better than the alternative

[faaun]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

[sainz100]

2024 Singapore GP | x

[miodiodavinci]

(face in hands) (again) men will simply feel the walls closing in around them

[leofrith]

oh the depression is fucking baaaad lmao

[stabbyfoxandrew]

:(

[butchford]

Bitches will be like "damn am I overexaggerating how bad the current landscape is?" And then the top posts in a character tag that's not even involved will be "this post contains filtered tags [ship]"

[pe0ple3ater]

And the thing about this is that it is so close to being romantic. You change ONE word in this, and it becomes a love confession. That's why I love their relationship so much, because really looking at it under a microscope you see that the divide between them is incredibly thin.

I talked about this a little privately to my friends, but Izaya is fascinating. He loves humanity, but won't love a single person (he's much like Saika in this way, maybe more on how Izaya is an amalgamation of all the types of love represented in drrr later) because it'd be a betrayal to the rest of humanity that he loves.

But in his eyes (at least in the anime, I'm not very far in the novels yet but I suspect I'll be proven correct) people like Shizuo and Celty aren't human, they're monsters. Of course this provides a loophole in Izaya's absolutely fucked logic to explain the undeniable connection he has with these people (even if Celty doesn't like him, even if Shizuo wants to kill him the connection is there)* and yet, monsters can't love.

The novels talk about Izaya as if he's inhuman too, I don't have the screenshot readily available but one thing that's upsetting me about the anime is they removed a very vital scene in the beginning*. Narration states; "They were grappling with the illusion that the other person in the room with them was not a human being at all" this instantly likens Izaya to the monsters he claims cannot love (something he feels about himself too, I think. That he can't love).

Back to monsters can't love, it's a way for him to squirm his way out of acknowledgement these connections. Shizuo and Celty are monsters who can't love, this denies any feelings Izaya might wish they hold for him (romantic or simply friendly) and HE is a monster who can't love, denying the very real feelings he has for them.

Izaya's heart is too fragile for love, Shizuo's strength makes him afraid of hurting the people he loves.

Shizuo can't kill Izaya, no matter how hard he tries. They replace that love and connection with something (ironically) safer for both of them, hate. They're two sides of the same coin.

* Izaya is included in the people "in Shizuo's vicinity," which is an interesting addition considering everyone else listed are people you could consider Shizuo's friend. These descriptions are also interesting because they all have to do with handling Shizuo's anger or protecting themselves against it, except for Izaya who's description is purely emotion based

* I'm talking about the scene with the two suicidal women, it's a really good insight on Izaya as a character from the beginning. The anime needed a villain so they molded him to fit and removed scenes that gave him some depth, but I also think he's just a really hard character to show in a visual way without making it extremely corny. There's so much dissonance between what he says and does vs. what he feels that I think it's hard to accurately portray him without internal narration, you miss a lot of his nuance in the anime

[the-way-astray]

hey so there's this play that i think you should read, it's called rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead

I WILL NEVER READ RAGAD YOU FUCKING LOSER-ASS FREAKAZOID

[sevenseasaurus]

so do the rest of you guys just simplify your dreams when explaining them to people or do I just remember a significantly weirder degree of depth than the average bear

[wayfinderships]

Good evening gamers!! Hope you're all doing well! As for me, I'm not doing so hot but playing some games will definitely help!